Thoughts on Psych

Psychology interests me so much. I want to study it and try to help people with mental disorders. I’m pretty sure this is the only thing I have wanted to research in my entire life.

Take schizophrenia. It is terrifying and fascinating at the same time.

I would love to learn more about it. While most disorders are (mostly) figured out, and what is causing them can (usually) be figured out, schizophrenia is a mystery. No pattern has revealed itself.

Which is scary. But it also makes me extremely curious.

Schizophrenia changes how I look at things, in a way. What does this mean for little kids and imaginary friends? Are they actually seeing things, or is just a fantasy of their intentional creation? Does it matter? How does an outsider know?

And how is it caused? Are people born with something in their brain that makes them schizophrenic, or is it caused by external circumstances? Is there a way to find out? And how can we tell if something is demon attack or a brain malfunction?

Is there a way to the make the medication so it doesn’t have such difficult side effects?

I want to learn more about this and try to understand it, so we can fix it. I am sure that hundreds of studies have been done on this, but I still want to do something.  

"It's Not You, It's the Culture."

Life is weird.

People are weird.

Societal norms are weird.

I am someone who usually goes without makeup. Because I am lazy.

And so on the off day when I do put on makeup, I get so. many. compliments. Seriously. Not that nobody ever says anything nice on normal days, but it astounds me every time how many people are like "Wow, Addi, you look really pretty today."

And it's not like I care, or at least not enough to wake up earlier every day so I can fix my hair and put on makeup.

I just find it interesting. Do I really look so different? (Yes, actually, I do. I know that.)

I was remarking on this to Maddie, and she said "It's not you, it's the culture." Which I knew, but it just struck me.

Our world is weird. 

Ennui.

Ennui

en·nui [ahn-wee, ahn-wee; French ahn-nwee]—noun

1. a feeling of utter weariness and discontent resulting from satiety or lack of interest; boredom: The endless lecture produced an unbearable ennui.